My New Year's Resolution

Hi my readers...

there are about 7 minutes for 2011 to come...hmmm...

hahaha....in this post i'm gonna state my resolutions for this year...hehe

Overall

1. to see that loosing about 35 KGs is super hard..i'm gonna try to loose some weight in 2011..no specific amount...just some...hehehe

2. make sure i pray 5 times a day...

3. lessen the junks in my lappy

4. always take the high road...

5. dont respond to drama queen stuffs...hehe...

ok now for the monthly

(now its 00:00)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

hehe

continue...

now for the monthly resolution...

Jan : -finish with brother's wedding and save some money...

-get a great start with classes...

-bapak's bday

February : - start a healthy diet

-get my self organised

March : - wake up super early...

- get the cam

april : - wish her birthday..

call AIMST gang...

May : -buy myself an iPod

- that fella's birthday

-expecting someone...haha...

Jun : -do something for kakak's bday...

July : do something for abang's bday...

August :may have to serve the country...

be nice/help the juniors///

the rest i will continue tomorrow coz i need to start packing now...leaving to school tomorrow...

My Dreams part 2

Hi yall…its 3.17 pm and I woke up an hour ago still haven’t ate anything…and am having a headache..Arghh…hate it when this happens to me…hehe….btw as I promised before I’m gonna continue with the last post…its about my dream right..hehe

Hmm…now its 6.30 pm….i don’t know why but I’m getting lazier and lazier by day..hmm.. I guess I have to find something interesting to do…hehehe…

Btw…continuing with the dreams..hehehe….

It may seem that I’m happy doing what I am doing right now but deep down in my heart….i’m not…hmmm….why u may ask???Bcoz I’m not following my dreams…

You see…born in a typical Malaysian family…I was raised to be practical….well…I am always practical but sometimes I believe that there’s more to life than to think that living safely…sometimes you have to take risk…and its good because it’ll build up your confidence level…

Its true you know….well..i always wanted to be a fashion designer. But why the hell I am not being what I wanna be???? Let me explain..back to the I was born part..well I was born in a family whereby things which are not comfortable won’t be discussed…and the idea of me getting into fashion studies is considered an uncomfortable thing…so no one has ever discussed about this..:(

Hmm…but by time I must fight for my rights…I must win my dreams…I know I have to…for the sake of my happiness…it may sound selfish but its not…coz everyone should do what the desire….to accomplish great victory in life…

But I don’t blame my parents…bcoz I know its hard to raise children and its not easy to go one second without thinking about their future…I know that…and I love them sooo much…

Its ok though….now I know what I should do and what I should not do when I have children of my own…

Ok..thats enough for the emo part…hehehe…now…I really envy them who has brought their dreams into reality…Hatta Dolmat, Rizman Ruzaini, Nik Erwan Roseli…hmmm…

Nevermind…I’ll be like them one day…will I???hmmm…I do n’t know…this thing is really getting me down…I am learning how to make simple garments and coutures..but I have a feeling that I wont be like them….its ok…as long as I can have the knowledge of fashion and as long as my interest don’t fade away….it’ll be all right…here are some photos of the fashion designers mentiond above…J

a list of Malaysia's top designers

Nik Erwan Roseli

Rizman Ruzaini

Hatta Dolmat

i think thats all for now...and i hope in the future you all will support me in what ever that i do...thx...bye yall...toodles~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~XOXO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

My Dreams part 1

Hi y’all. Its holidays and I’m getting bored as time goes by slowly. haha.

But not for this coming two weeks...it’s going to be hectic...

hmmm....

but leave that aside....

in the last post i may have expressed myself about my past and how i feel about my friends back in school...to those who understood...u know how i feel about them...for those who dont...well...good...

hehehe..

now... i'm gonna talk about my dreams...

hehe

when i was in standard 1..my dream was...ummm...wait...uuhhhhhh...hmmm...well i cant remember it until i am in standard 4...Then, i wanted to be a teacher....hehehe...

the n when I was in standard 6, I was introduced in the world of doctor…the medical once…

My Dad always talk about me being a doctor and all and by form 5 I was interested in fashion design…haha….

Its three different scopes there..hahaha…

Anyways I did my foundation in science for 1 year and I was really determined to be a doctor…

But somehow that didn’t worked out….

Sooo I got into maktab..to be a teacher…an English teacher…

Hehehe…

For all of you out there..

u may think that aww..finally he achieved his dreams…it was his first ambition…blah…blah…blah…

hahaha…sorry…

of course I wanted to be a teacher at first…it’s the easiest job in the world(not really)..and u don’t have night shifts…u don’t have to be ON CALLS…in don’t have to go to school in the middle of the night….

But in reality…its not my dream job…

From form 5 up till now..i always wanted to be a fashion designer…

Fashion is my passion…

I don’t know why but now I’m out of word to describe how I feel towards this thing…

I don’t know how to expressed it in word…maybe bcoz I’m tired and I need some sleep…hehe…

Its 4.07 am….and I’ll be going to bed…I shall continue after I wake up…gud night..and sweet dreams…

to be continued today evening...J

My Past

My Past

i made this poem just for my friends back in school..

it describes how i feel towards them and

how this also describe how much i appreciate my friends now..

no matter how unpleasant u are...

and for those who really understand the meaning u will know...

how was i in school...:)

i worked hard in where i was before,

and become one of the ones who had more,

apparently i am forgotten,

in the memories that i hold rotten....

i show gratitude to my acquaintances,

for showing me ur true tangents,

i learn more and more from the days that past,

thinking how ur fictitious will ever last..

now i know, i am no longer needed,

for all of you who have succeeded,

now i can value the power of the ALmighty,

for now i am very gutsy...