I love YOU bapak!!!!

her hair was up in a ponytail
her favorite dress tied with a bow
today was daddy's day at school
and she couldn't wait to go
but her mommy tried to tell her
that she probably should stay home
why the kids might not understand
if she went to school alone
but she was not afraid
she knew just what to say
what to tell her classmates
of why he wasnt there today
but still her mother worried
for her to face this day alone
and that is why once again
she tried to keep her daughter home
but the little girl went to school
eager to tell them all
about a dad she never sees
a dad who never calls
there were daddies along the wall in the back for everyone to meet
childeren squirming impatiently
anxious in their seats
one by one the teacher called
a student from the class
to introduce their daddy,
as seconds slowly passed
at last the teacher called her name
every child turned to stare
each of them was searching a man who wasn't there
she went to the front of the class
as she smiled up at her mom
and looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on
and with hands behind her back
she slowly began to speak
and from out the mouth of a child came words incredibly unique
'my daddy couldnt be here
because he lives so far away
but i know he wishes he could be
since this is such a special day
and though u cannot meet him
i wanted you to know
all about my daddy and how much he loves me so
he loved to tell me storie
she taught me to ride my bike
he surprised me with pink roses
and taught me to fly a kite
we used to share fudge sundaes
and ice cream in a cone
and though you cannot see him
im not standing here alone
cause my daddy is always with me
even though we are apart
i know because he told me he'll forever be in my heart"
with that her little hand reached up
and lay across her chest
feeling her own heart beat
beneath her favorite dress
and from somewhere in the crowd of dads
her mother stood in tears
proudly watched her daughter
who was wise beyond her years
she finished with a voice so soft
but its message clear and loud...
'i love my daddy very much
hes my shining star
and if he could, he'd be here
..but heavens just too far'

Why I Cried in The Exam Hall...

Hey y'all...

hmm...yeah today i cried in the exam hall...

not because i couldnt answer...but i chose to answer something very personal...haha..

so just now for section be question to we all were suppose to write an essay....as usual 3 options were given...

1) u were alone in the field then there was a box..then the box was shaking....write a story based on this phrase...(something like that)...

2)how embarrassing...

3)write an essay with this ending.."that was the day that i wont forget in my life"

so i choose the third one...and planned to write a somewhat i would call a sad story...so here we go...

My grandfather was a strong and hardworking man. He always works to find extra money for the family. My grandmother always tells us stories about how he always hit on her when they were young and how they were having a hard time. With two children, my father and my aunt, they came to Malaysia and they were kind of suffered. My grandmother always says that my grandfather was the reason that they can live a comfortable life now. My cousins and I call my grandfather “Aiyya” which is ‘the respected one’ in Tamil. There nothing much to say about our relationship though, because he is seldom at home. He is always busy working and doing business regardless to his health. I guess he is used to the workaholic way of life.

So one Thursday afternoon, if I’m not mistaken, I just got back from driving school. During that time, I just finished SPM and I was waiting for the results. So my parents felt that it’s the perfect time for me to get my driving license. On that day I was very tired because I haven’t slept the whole night. Just as I put my head on the pillow, planning to take a nap, I received a call from my father. It was odd because he seldom call me at this time because its either I’ll be sleeping or I’ll be off for driving classes. Luckily that day I was doing neither. I picked up and said “Assalamualaikum”. I was shocked by what my father said. I felt like somebody ripped open my chest and took my heart away. I was speechless when my father said “Aiyya passed away”. For the first time in my life, I felt a loss of a family member.

My father passed the phone to my mother and she asked me to get ready. According to her, my sister will be coming any second to fetch me. She asked me to bring some extra clothes for her and my father. I just kept quiet. My sister is teaching in a school not far away from our house and our house is on the way to my grandparent’s house. After about 20 minutes my sister came and we made a move immediately. In the car we were both quiet. At the corner of my eye I can see my sister shed her tears. I feel for her because my brother and she were the first two grandchildren of my grandparents. They were very close. Along the journey, I was going through a nostalgic moment. Even though there aren’t many memories with my late grandfather. But the ones I have are very precious. I still remember there was this time when me and my cousins played ‘truth or dare’ and I picked dare on my turn. My cousins asked me to go and kiss Aiyya. It was suppose to be a joke but deep down in my heart I wanted to do it. So I went and did it. It was very awkward but it was the first and last time I kissed him.

After an hour we finally reach Jasin where my grandparent’s house is. There were a lot of cars and when my sister and I went through the gate I can see that most of my neighbours were there. When I walked in they consulted me and my sister. They said “be brave and be strong”. The first thing I saw when I walked in was my aunties. They were all reciting Yassin for my grandfather. We immediately went into my grandmother’s room. There, my heart dropped again. My grandmother was crying hysterically. She couldn’t accept the fact that my grandfather is gone. I don’t blame her for being too emotional because he was the love of her life. They got married when she was 15 and she has been living with her ever since. They were together for almost 60 years and now she is all alone. She cried even louder when she saw my sister, their first granddaughter, came in. I still remember my grandmother said “Your Aiyya always wanted to see your wedding, but now he is gone”. My sister wasn’t married then. She just started working.

Me and my sister were with my grandmother until my parents came. Shortly after they came the van that brought my grandfather’s corpse came. They carried him inside the house. He was face at the ‘kiblat’ direction and we all recited ‘Yassin’ for him. After that we brought him outside where his body was washed and the Imam poured camphor water all over his body. All of my uncle and male cousins were there. It was an environment filled with sorrowness. The fountain of our blood has stopped. The sadness was indescribable. After that we prepared him for the funeral ceremony. We wrapped him with white cloth his body was brought back into the house. We recited the Yassin for him again and all my relatives kissed his forehead for the last time. Later that evening we went to the cemetery for the ceremony. After it has finished we stayed for a while then went back to our house.

After about a week all of my relatives went back. I stayed there for about one month to help my grandmother with her house chores. I thought since I am not doing anything at home might as well I go and stay with her. She was having a really hard time. She cries in her prayers, she cries when she eat, and she even cry in her sleep. I really pity her, at the same time I really look up to her because she still has the courage to move on with her life. 5^th February 2008. That is the day that I will not forget for the rest of my life.

so that i what i wrote well at least what i intended to write..but due to words limitation my real essay was about half of this one. cant believe i am crying again..hmm..

so i'll be dropping off here...see yall real soon....

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What We Did in Language Development Class....

hey Y'all...its me again...

yeah...like there was someone else before...hehehe

btw....next week is my exam...

PLEASE...PLEASE PRAY FOR ME....

so yeah....today we had a mockery of the mock exam..hahaha....my life is complicated man...

hahaha

hmm..yeah.....we did some questions on Social Studies...i was feeling kind of weird because...its seems like the exam vibe is not there yet...and by now i should be worried...but wth...lets see when i'll get the breakdown...hahaha...

so today...apart from Social Studies....we did a little discussion on Language Development class with madam Seethradevi!!!hehe..thank God she's better now.........so after discussing the other parts we came to the "FREE WRITING PART"...so madam ask us to get into groups....according to the topics....

there were 3 topics

1. Lies, lies and more lies...

2. a thing that you cant live without.

3.i didn't remember but its about a kid who had chicken pox and claimed he had not been near a chicken...hahaha....

so the ones who picked number 1 gathered together...since there were 9 of us...madam ask us to divide ourselves into 2 groups....

in my group there were SAZZLING DI, FANTASTIC FERA, LOVELY ELVINA and THE AWESOMAZING ASYRAF...hahahha.....

so we decided to come up with a narrative essay...

and write the essay on something that me, d and fera have in common...that is a thing that happen to all three of us..well actually it happened to everyone...but only some realised about it...so when we told elvina...she was kind of shocked..hahhaa...well...the truth will eventually come out right...?

we came out with a nice out line and i cant wait to actually write the essay...haha...the most important thing is the ending part....it goes like this.....

" The whole situation made me realise that he is not worth trusting. Among my friends I was the one who he effected the most. Now I know the real Damon and although things have been different, he is still telling lies as though nothing has happened. well, its true what people have been saying "a leopard doesn't change its spots". Although it took a while for me to notice the word "lie" in the believe that I had for him but I always thank The Almighty for giving me friends who have real eyes because "real eyes realise real lies".....

so that was the ending part..haha...can u imagine the intro and body paragraph...yeah..its controversial....hehehe.....btw....its not "based" on true story though...IT IS A TRUE STORY!!!hahaha.....

so i think thats all for tonight...can wait for tomorrow cause i want to actually start study....ok..i think i'm starting to get the feeling now...hmmm....ok y'all....

~bye mirë~

~kujdes~

My Not So Secret Wishlist....

haha....

hey y'all....

how y'all doing???

i'm back home now...after about 5 days....

i had some really good food...

theres no doubt that i'm gonna gain some weight this 2 days....

hahaha...

tomorrow i'm going to Segamat with my mum....we r gonna send her car to be serviced and we r gonna go and visit nenek and bring her for shopping...YAY!!!!!

hehehe...

so as u can see the entry's title...today i'm gonna talk about my NOT SO SECRET WISHLIST....haha...actually i got this idea from fera...so credits to her....

some of you may know that i've been saving up my allowance since last June..hahaha...

so the things in my NOT SO SECRET WISHLIST are...

1) SONY NEX-5

there are no words that could describe the feeling i have towards this camera....OMG!!!!!

haha...my brother is using NEX-3...so i kind of know the functions..basically its the same except for the quality...NEX-5 shoots in HD and Video-shoots in FULL HD...

here's a link to a description about this camera...

NEX-5

2) Apple iPod TOUCH!!!!!!!

so after i get the dream camera i want to save my allowance and buy my self a iPod TOUCH...hehehe...its soooo cool....and since i want to get an audio device i might as well get a new one...hehe...dont u think so??

APPLE iPod TOUCH

3) 21MEN Slouch Hoodie Top.!!

its been haunting me since i saw it online two weeks ago..haha....its gorgeous...but in order for me to buy it and worth buying it i have to lose about 80 lbs first...then it'll fit me...hahaha....

21MEN Slouch Hoodie Top

4)21MEN CAMPUS QUAD BAG

5)21MEN Two Pocket Canvas Bag

6)FOREVER 21 F9726 Sunglasses

OK...IF I CONTINUE....IT'LL BE FILLED WITH 21 PRODUCTS....SOO....HAHA...JUST PAHAM2 JE LA YER....

so the link for those products are here...:)

21

i think that is all...i shall get back to y'all soon...good bye...:)

~búcsút~

~vigyázzon~

DISCUS THROW!!!

hey y'all...

hehehe..

how y'all are doing ???

i hope y'all are fine out there...

today we had this sports tryouts...

i tried out for "DISCUS THROW" , "JAVELIN" and "SHOT PUT"

well...i dont know whether i got into any of that but i was quite ok with the first one...the disk-like-thingy went far enough even without full force...hehehe...

hehehe..i dont even wanna talk about the other two...hehehe...it was AWFUL!!!!!

anyhoo...after the tryouts me and abg ijat took some pictures...some scandalous ones..hahaha... and then we went for a walk.... then went back...

ready to go babay!!!!

the most decent one...:P...hehehe...

and then tomorrow is going to be hectic...URGHH!!!!

first its thursday tomorrow..and i hate thursdays...i dont know why but i am always a different person on thursdays...not in a good way you know....

tomorrow we'll be having a short drama...hahaha..our scene is a bit funny not by the story line but by the way how we act...hahaha....especially anis atasha....no offense ye anis..hehehe....

tomorrow evening we'll be having social studies presentation...urghh~~~~i hate evening classes...especially on thursday..its like two bad things happening at once...urghhh~~~

and we have to show madam the outline of our critical essay..hmmm...

i'm doing something on GENDER EQUALITY, INEQUALITY and STEREOTYPING...

haha..so..just wait for the product k..i'll make an entry of it just like what i did on the SEXUAL EDUCATION......sooo....

umm...i shall see you guys real soon....hehehe...

bye y'all...

~Vale~

~Cura~

JOGGING~~~hehehe...

hye y'all..

well in my new years resolution i might've mention about losing weight...hehehe

well...i'm working on it though...hehe....today i skipped one of my meals and went for a jog

this evening...hahaha...its a HUGE accomplishment...regarding to how i used to eat...

i hope the result will be satisfying coz now i'm really psyched...hahaha...abt loosing

weight...so now...i;m gonna cont working out....and u shall here from me on the next

entry..(DUH~~)

~ADIOS~

~CUIDAR~